Resume...

好久没有上来了，这才发觉竟然一整年都没更新我的部落格。。。

Just discovered a blog of a colleague. She's a technical lead in our team, married mother with 2 kids, just 2-3 years older then me. When I first saw her, she looks like a "little women", 小女人. After I started working under her temporary recently, I was amazed by her technical knowledge. She's very sharp and fast. I feel comfortable working with her because she's also a very helpful lead. And from her blog, I discovered that she's not only good in her work, but she's also a very good wife and mother. She can cook, bake, and even make new dresses for her little daughters. Wow, to me, she's an amazing super mother, and definitely my role model. who can balanced herself well between work and family.

After reading her blog, I'm thinking to resume blogging again. Nothing much, just to keep a diary or memory about my life....

Time flies... it's going to be end of year 2010 very very soon and this is how I walked thru it...

1) After staying 7 years in Penang, I finally moved to KL to stay with Vic and his family.
2) Resigned from Intel, my very first job after graduation, left behind a lot of sweet memories and friends there...
3) Got a new job in KL, changed my field, and restart my career!
4) Dream come true.... backpacking trip to Europe, visited 6 countries, 10 cities and couchsurf-ed with 6 different hosts.
5) Finally moved to our home sweet home, after spending endless time buying furniture and decorating our little apartment.
6) Family trip to Bali
7) and a little sweet surprise awaiting me after I came back from the trip.... :)

Overall, a year full of surprise and changes, I finally moved my butt from comfort zone and marching towards a better (I hope) future. I think I'm adapting well to it (so far), with the full support from him...

There are lots more stories to tell.... and I hope I have the patient to write them down....

p/s: and for my travel blog (Canada and Europe), it's in my facebook, but both are not completed yet... :|

深夜的长途巴士

深夜。
坐在从吉隆坡开往槟城的长途巴士上。
他，就在身旁。

黑暗中，分享着同一对耳机，听着一起喜欢的音乐。
握着他的手，靠着他的肩。
时不时，用手指在他手背上打拍子；
偶尔，跟着音乐哼唱。

望着窗外，对面的车灯飞驶而过，一会儿又恢复黑暗。
忽然觉得，长途巴士的路途不再那么难熬。

只要有他的陪伴。

我不知道

幸福是什么？我不知道。
似乎近在眼前，想伸手抓着，却怎么也抓不到。

最近在工作上有点力不从心。很烦躁。
我想要放下一切，去流浪。
像三毛一样，流浪。
去体验人生；去看看世界。

我放得下吗？我不知道。
讨厌这样的我，永远都那么犹豫不决。
只会想，不会做。

放下，还是逃避? 我不知道。
永远只会逃避现实的我。

心是不安的，轻浮的。
我渴望安定下来的感觉，典型的金牛座。

不能这样啊！难道我想就这样过一生吗？
一次的生命，没有重来的机会啊！

冷静。让思绪沉淀。深呼吸。
你啊，要学会让自己别那么急躁。

烦

一直想写些什么，但都下不了笔。太久没写了，生锈了。最近不知怎的，心情上上下下，很不安稳。不知自己在想些什么，一天又一天的混日子。受他的影响，越来越相信面相手相之类的东西，变得有点疑神疑鬼。工作上愈渐感到吃力。我真的是个想多做少的人。这些东西有时还真挺准的， 所以不得不担心将来会发生的事。还是这只是在为自己找借口。这也叫做少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲吧。哎，是否太悲观了呢？think positive more.... 又在自言自语了。

小小的快乐

上星期六，跟雅云到理大去跑步。没想到理大的 track field 是那么地漂亮，从司令台看出去，只见青山连绵，蓝天白云，早晨的空气特别清新，让人心旷神怡。在槟城很久没看到那么大的天空了，亏我还在这儿生活了5年，有点惭愧。。好久没跑步了，可能因为有去爬山的关系，还能够不间断的跑了1.6 km. （自豪着 :P ）。流了汗， 特别精神。之前的忧郁情绪等都一扫而空。有时候，其实一些小小的事情，能让自己有小小的快乐，就足够了。

催眠

庸庸碌碌的活着的我，今天不知明日事。有太多太多的理想，但就只是想而已。唉，这就是我。日日夜夜的工作，每天被压力沉沉的笼罩着。一天一天，一星期又一星期，眨眼已经四月了。我又做了什么？好像把自己卖给了公司。但，这只是单恋。它随时可以翻脸不认人，把你给炒了。我要选择快乐。把这些负面的想法给扫走。（自我催眠着）

元宵

2008年的元宵节。夜。9点57分。

书桌前。丝路。梁静如。

~~星星就是穷人的珍珠，你的笑支撑着我虔诚的追逐~~

~~孤独的丝路~~

~~我将眼泪流成天山上面的湖，让你疲倦时能够扎营停驻~~

~~爱上了你的全部放弃我的全部~~

一首我很喜欢的歌，贴切我现在的心情，绝佳的词与曲。
不知该写些什么。不知该怎么写。
多愁善感的我。

4th Year Anniversary

After the first blog, got some concerns from friends whether am I really that bored?　
谢谢你们的关心,我的朋友.
时间真的过得太快.忽然惊觉我已不再年轻.
来到这座岛屿快四年. 这也代表我出来社会大学也已四年了.

心境上,一直觉得自己还是一个刚刚毕业,什么都不知道,单纯天真烂漫的女孩.
心理上,一直还像个鸵鸟似的, 不愿长大.不愿承认我也已经老大不小了.
小时候的那些理想啊,抱负啊,也已不知隐藏在心里的哪一个角落, 发霉生锈
下个星期一,四月十六,就是我们进入英特尔‘鼻涕斯’满四周年的纪念日了.
所有一起成为第一届GI (现在是GT) 的朋友们, 你们都还好吗?
两年前的这个时候，我和伊伦美敏在美国的加利福尼亚州， 还寄出了一封电子邮件给你们，恭祝所有‘侥幸存活’下来的人 :)
一眨眼，两年变四年，留下来的人还剩多少？（我不敢算K ）
有时候想一想，我自己是长情呢，还是懒惰。
好多人都在外面闯出一片天了，我却还一直赖在自己的comfort zone, 屁股黏在椅子上，动也不动，不愿起来。（迟早有一天变成dinosaur… ）
那些读着master 的朋友们都快要毕业了，我的梦想又在那里呢？
工作忙得让我喘不过气来。一直被推着不停往前冲，（冲啊冲啊!!!!），却没时间（藉口）停下来好好想想，我要的到底是什么呢？
五年后的我又会在那里，变得怎麽样？十年后呢？会不会还是像现在一样，一样的重复的在懊恼着？（那么就可以cut and paste 现在这篇blog，不用再重写 :) ）　

哈哈，到现在我都没变多少，还是那个一整天无病呻吟的我。
(他一直要我多think positive, 看来我还没学到多少　=P )

p/s: 我还留着那封2 years anniversary 的email。
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Survival of first batch GTs in Intel
For
2 years !!!!!
Hi my friends…
So… what’s so special today? Hehe..… today is 16th April 2005……… It’s our 2 years anniversary in Intel PDC….. let’s celebrate…
Congratulations to all survivors! Keep up the good job!!!
p/s: still remember what does GT means?
Warm regards from,
Bee Min, Ee Lun and Min Si :)
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Wow… Times fly.
We should hold some celebration instead – hard to survive in PDC indeed. J
Best regards, Jennifer Mo
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I still think our batch is the BEST!!
Swee Teng, Andy and I still have 2 days to go before officially being 2 years in Intel :p
- CP
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Time does fly, at light speed!
2 years in Intel… what have we gained?
Siti Asmawati Ibrahim
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I got weight gain :) for 7 kg.
swee aun
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My wrinkles grow.
Jennifer Mo
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I have been rewarded a pair of panda’s eyes
Swee Teng
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Any one got white hair yet?
Ai-yin
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I do..
Siti Asmawati Ibrahim
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i gained a whole bunch of good frens…
- CP